shadow of a heart

i jumped into my own shadow
it is good to remind myself that i did this
&
 playing with this heart
exposed the darker
shades of alterity
somebody's umbrage
or my own persecution complex ...
or complex persecution
'n
realised that
somehow
catching 'em -
 sending 'em back
to where they came from  
             
is
utterly justified

for all these stalkings
mercurial or not
have their origin:

here in this place
i am
dancing off
 spider bites
or
maybe
aiming for
incredible heights

sublimating
this self's fool
or
needing to
revive
the music -
at the very least
refusing to be
dispirited
by any
shadowing of a heart